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Uhm, first of all, i'm trying this new fur style and i'm pretty happy with how it looks so far.
Second, i'm changing the name "Aquapaw" to "Aqua", i finally noticed 'paw' doesn't have anything to do with her and that i don't like it. (Well, my username will still be 'AquapawtheCat2017' until a miracle happens and i get a Core somehow.)
Third, i changed Aqua's design, and i actually love the new one. I finally drew her the way i always wanted her to look like, and she looks more like a cat too, well, at least more than what she looked like before, on my other style.
Fourth, i have decided to take art more seriously from now on, i usually draw just for fun but, art IS and will always be my thing, and i'll be following as an artist/designer. This is really what i want to do, i can't think of anything else i would ever want to do profissionally one day if not drawing.
Fifth, i, uh... PROBABLY won't draw with the style i drew, like, 2 deviations ago. I kept with that style for a long time even if i improved with looks and everything, but i'm kinda tired of that style and i might go on with the one i tried.
Since two years later i started drawing i already had decided i would be a designer, but the stuff i draw since that time is just... Childish..? I'm too childish too, i like being kind and talking to others on i would say is a 'relaxed' way. Sometimes i say stuff i don't mean, i'm sorry for that, if i ever sounded rude, i'm sorry too. I say 'what', 'why', 'omg' and 'lol' A LOT, and i'm not joking when i say a lot. I really DON'T want to sound like a 8-10 years old silly girl. I want to sound like 13, my age, i want to do stuff on a normal way, not on a silly way like i've been doing. I laugh about, like, everything -isaylikealottoogosh-, things were basically too bad for me and my mom the last 3 years and i was drowning in the middle of so much going on. I seriously was ok, until the 7th grade. I started being the silly me you have seen till now, i started laughing about everything and i was being rude with others who told me how i was acting like they were 'venting' about my actions with me because i thought they didn't accept me for who i was. I really thought i was that silly, wants-to-be-funny-all-the-time girl... I was. I felt really bad when my best friend abandoned me, we were friends since i had joined that school, for three years, we were best friends, i don't know exactly if i did something wrong.. I.. Really don't know.
I felt betrayed when she trusted a girl she knew for 5 months more than she trusted me... And now i don't know what a 'friend' means anymore, i'm just too afraid i'll be yelled at for being who i am, being called things i'm not because of how i look like, being alone because of who i trusted the most left me to be around someone they knew so little... Being called a kid by everyone but ONE true friend that was the only one who understood me and was there all the time, was she happy or sad, she was always there for me, she didn't abandon me for anyone else, neither did she abandon me because she was having problems at her home.......
I want to change... So badly... I want to be someone that others enjoy spending time with, talking with. I don't wanna be someone that others walk away from. I don't wanna be alone, i want to have friends, true friends. I want to have a likely personality, one that i won't be called "annoying", or "childish" for my acts. I don't wanna be rude with anyone. I'll try to accept their opinions on me the best was possible and use them to build myself up, to be someone better, maybe someone that others will look up too. I'll really try, i'll try very hard, so that i can be the real me, someone that others won't have a bad thing to say about.
Anyone but my mom ever really told me nice things about my drawings, my "friends" laughed at me because i liked to draw ponies and they said it was a little kid's show... And i improved all by myself. Even if the stuff they told me about my drawings pushed me down, i continued, for fun. I remember like it was yesterday, when i was on the 3rd grade, everyone was rude with me, i was nice to them and they treated me like trash, like i had something contagious, like i didn't have feelings, and everyday, when i got home, i started crying and i wouldn't stop until i was totally tired of crying so much... I usually just stopped after 1:30hours of crying or more. My mom was always worried and i always told her i didn't know why i was crying, it was true tho. But today i know.. I was feeling lonley, ignored, i was feeling like i was nothing to anyone and that i would always be alone. I still am... These 5 months of new school, i was alone, ignored and called rude things... I still don't know how to deal with that totally, i just laughs when others call me things, but deep inside it's like my heart was being shattered. So i'll change. I'll try. Even if very slowly, i will change.
Second, i'm changing the name "Aquapaw" to "Aqua", i finally noticed 'paw' doesn't have anything to do with her and that i don't like it. (Well, my username will still be 'AquapawtheCat2017' until a miracle happens and i get a Core somehow.)
Third, i changed Aqua's design, and i actually love the new one. I finally drew her the way i always wanted her to look like, and she looks more like a cat too, well, at least more than what she looked like before, on my other style.
Fourth, i have decided to take art more seriously from now on, i usually draw just for fun but, art IS and will always be my thing, and i'll be following as an artist/designer. This is really what i want to do, i can't think of anything else i would ever want to do profissionally one day if not drawing.
Fifth, i, uh... PROBABLY won't draw with the style i drew, like, 2 deviations ago. I kept with that style for a long time even if i improved with looks and everything, but i'm kinda tired of that style and i might go on with the one i tried.
Since two years later i started drawing i already had decided i would be a designer, but the stuff i draw since that time is just... Childish..? I'm too childish too, i like being kind and talking to others on i would say is a 'relaxed' way. Sometimes i say stuff i don't mean, i'm sorry for that, if i ever sounded rude, i'm sorry too. I say 'what', 'why', 'omg' and 'lol' A LOT, and i'm not joking when i say a lot. I really DON'T want to sound like a 8-10 years old silly girl. I want to sound like 13, my age, i want to do stuff on a normal way, not on a silly way like i've been doing. I laugh about, like, everything -isaylikealottoogosh-, things were basically too bad for me and my mom the last 3 years and i was drowning in the middle of so much going on. I seriously was ok, until the 7th grade. I started being the silly me you have seen till now, i started laughing about everything and i was being rude with others who told me how i was acting like they were 'venting' about my actions with me because i thought they didn't accept me for who i was. I really thought i was that silly, wants-to-be-funny-all-the-time girl... I was. I felt really bad when my best friend abandoned me, we were friends since i had joined that school, for three years, we were best friends, i don't know exactly if i did something wrong.. I.. Really don't know.
I felt betrayed when she trusted a girl she knew for 5 months more than she trusted me... And now i don't know what a 'friend' means anymore, i'm just too afraid i'll be yelled at for being who i am, being called things i'm not because of how i look like, being alone because of who i trusted the most left me to be around someone they knew so little... Being called a kid by everyone but ONE true friend that was the only one who understood me and was there all the time, was she happy or sad, she was always there for me, she didn't abandon me for anyone else, neither did she abandon me because she was having problems at her home.......
I want to change... So badly... I want to be someone that others enjoy spending time with, talking with. I don't wanna be someone that others walk away from. I don't wanna be alone, i want to have friends, true friends. I want to have a likely personality, one that i won't be called "annoying", or "childish" for my acts. I don't wanna be rude with anyone. I'll try to accept their opinions on me the best was possible and use them to build myself up, to be someone better, maybe someone that others will look up too. I'll really try, i'll try very hard, so that i can be the real me, someone that others won't have a bad thing to say about.
Anyone but my mom ever really told me nice things about my drawings, my "friends" laughed at me because i liked to draw ponies and they said it was a little kid's show... And i improved all by myself. Even if the stuff they told me about my drawings pushed me down, i continued, for fun. I remember like it was yesterday, when i was on the 3rd grade, everyone was rude with me, i was nice to them and they treated me like trash, like i had something contagious, like i didn't have feelings, and everyday, when i got home, i started crying and i wouldn't stop until i was totally tired of crying so much... I usually just stopped after 1:30hours of crying or more. My mom was always worried and i always told her i didn't know why i was crying, it was true tho. But today i know.. I was feeling lonley, ignored, i was feeling like i was nothing to anyone and that i would always be alone. I still am... These 5 months of new school, i was alone, ignored and called rude things... I still don't know how to deal with that totally, i just laughs when others call me things, but deep inside it's like my heart was being shattered. So i'll change. I'll try. Even if very slowly, i will change.
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i wanted to be back on art but I feel like I'm not good enough and that no one will see what I post...
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[x] You have an OC that resembles yourself (personality)
[ ] One of your OC's has your name
[x] You have OC's that are siblings
[x] You are constantly drawing your OC's (i just don't post)
[ ] You constantly receive positive feedback about one or more of your OC's
|total: 3
[x] You have more than five OC's (28 in total i guess)
[x] Your OC's are varied
[x] You have a main OC whom you love the most out of all your OC's
[ ] Your OC's are mostly mythical
[ ] A lot of your OC's were adoptables
|total: 3
[x] You have a 'bad boy' or 'bad girl' OC
[ ] You have a girly OC
[x] You have a 'cool' or 'sl
Separated by Classes. Page 4.
As i study in the morning, after getting home and taking a shower, i lunch and then i have some time to rest and do the school lessons. Exactly what i'm doing now. The homework that my history teacher spent is up to easy. Sometimes i feel a little bad to think so, i know some people in my room have difficulties with history. But it's so easy ...
A funny fact is that i get to do the homework while i think of anything. I do not even know how i can do this, but i'm sure i pulled it from my mother, because sometimes she would do it while we talked without the slightest problem.
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i had "best friend" like 3 or 2 years ago and now no longer he left me because his sexuality [yah he is party animal] and he is one of reasons i left art and creativity for 3 year and then i re joint my art and creativity for 5 mounts i was improving every day getting better and better enjoying life but one day he came up and said "Your art reminded me as child" in that small moment i forgot to enjoy , i forgot to how to draw my own . Only thing left me to remind me who i am is my icon and my wacom tabled from my dad. So what i learned was i don't belongs to life . Stress and anger was building up day by day only one thing holding me was pain . when i feel anger i took a bite from my self , feels stress cutting my hand with knife and hoping it can release my stress . day by day wandering what is life and wishing my self die quickly . Trying to find what is wrong with me Am i crazy or am i just accident that doesn't belongs to life. What is life? what is death. is death better than life? why this is exist . Saying i am okey saying i can survive in this stupid life saying one day i can be my self saying i am free i am not rest of my long slaved family saying my self i can go . In the end of my life what is reward? it is death...
ask your self about why they dislike me ? why they better than me? Why they are helping me? why they are ignoring me? why he or she talks to me like animal? why he or she talks to me so nicely?
[i don't want live ... sorry. so sorry . why am i writting this]
ask your self about why they dislike me ? why they better than me? Why they are helping me? why they are ignoring me? why he or she talks to me like animal? why he or she talks to me so nicely?
[i don't want live ... sorry. so sorry . why am i writting this]